Europe and Home Final Part – Caythorpe and London

Onwards…..and literally upwards…..at least if you see forward progress as North being up…. In what was an increasingly familiar routine, my belongings get repacked, and I am out for an early morning departure. This particular days’ journey is probably the longest and most complex of the ones in my trip. A bus back to Bristol […]

Europe and Home Part 5 – Portsmouth and Glastonbury

The whirlwind tour of the UK continued with a super early morning drive to Eastbourne where my mom dropped me off for the first of many busses around the UK to see a few other friends before my time was up. We said our goodbyes, and it was a 4 hr journey along the south […]

Europe and Home Part 4 – Bexhill and Mom

A relatively short flight on RyanAir brings me to the good old UK. Feeling pretty tired again with minimal sleep (up at 4 for a 6am flight), but all goes well…..well-ish anyway. There is a wait for my bus, so I settle in the airport cafe, and a little before my bus is due to […]

Europe and Home Part 3 – Pisa

Back on the train! It’s a short hop from Florence to Pisa. I asked two Italians before I left ‘what’s the best thing to do in Pisa’ and their answers were exactly the same…’Get drunk’. It didn’t exactly fill me with confidence to hear that, but I was only going to be there for a […]

Europe and Home Part 2 – Florence

Bundled on to a train with my stuff in the Italian summer heat, and I am on to my next destination, Florence. First, I am impressed by the trains and facilities in general, comfortable, regular, fast, and due to the size of the country, it feels like everywhere is connected. Florence is 2.5hrs away from […]

Europe and Home – Part 1 – Venice

So. Saturday night. Flying to Europe from Montreal. On the Plane. I get 3…count ’em….3 seats to myself….thanks to these lovely old ladies moving to a different section. (I didn’t force them to move, honest…) And STILL I cannot sleep….my brain is working overtime. I am visualizing the complex plan that I have set out […]

I should start here.

It is May. 2017. I am 46. I am 14 days from a return to the UK. I haven’t seen home in a number of years. On this whirlwind trip around the UK I will also see a few friends that I haven’t seen for a long time. A couple of people, not since the end […]

Pain is a person.

Let me begin by admitting something. I am a wimp.   I don’t think I am being overly unkind to myself, I am just being realistic. I am not a manly man; the kind of arm-amputee-its-just-a-flesh-wound type of alpha male. My relationship with pain is a long one, to the extent that I was so […]

I am not Deadpool (and so am you)

Featured Image – Chibi Deadpool by Teimari “The forties are the time when you begin to take notice of certain aches and pains. Your body and brain behave in inexplicable ways: Less hair on your head, more in your ears and nostrils. More memories in the bank, less synaptic firepower with which to access them. […]

Intimate Distance

This title is something I struggled with for much longer than the inspiration for the blog itself. First…I want to say that anything contained here is from my own skewed, flawed, imperfect perspective. As it can only be. And it may be completely wrong. Second. To be frank…who cares. She won’t read it. We are […]

On Anger

I would say it has been about two years since I lost my cool. Perhaps another 6 months-1 year before then for the time before…..perhaps another 3 years for the time before that. I would like to think I am a calm person…then again, I think we all would like to think that. I know […]

Sky Scared – My first drone flight.

New experiences. Ooooh. So, my stabilizer friend, Sunny, was kind enough to pull a few strings on the other side of the world and get me a drone at cost price. It all happened in a rush. We were talking about it last week, it was shipped from China on Thursday, and I was picking […]

On Failure..

When I go and see a movie, I will always have an opinion about it, but good or bad, I will always stay to watch the film. My general outlook is that you can learn as much from a bad movie as you can from a good one. Even if it annoys you, repulses you, […]

Haiti – Day Six – The Bittersweet

The sun rises on a final day in another world. The sound of church bells becomes a part of the morning routine now. Not to say that in six days everything becomes routine, because I just have to glance over the balcony and take a breath and listen to the sounds to realize I am […]

Haiti – Day Five – Crossing Over

Today was an early start….wasn’t every morning? We were up before sunrise again with the over enthusiastic church bells (did I mention they are recorded, not live? I felt sightly cheated about that bit…church bells from speakers from an on-off switch feels slightly like religion-lite). After breakfast…finally got a hold of a needle and thread […]

Haiti – Day Four – Contrasts

After the more emotionally turbulent day previously, we were up again at the crack of dawn…quite literally…I was shuffling around before sunrise, at 5.30, only to find that there was no electricity, water, or church, which was supposed to be the reason we all woke up early. I filmed the sunrise whilst the group hung […]

Haiti – Day Three – Pride and Prejudice

A day of thoughts for me. The timetable was relatively simple, Church in the morning, then a free day, a trip to the beach. I am staying on a church compound, a gated community, containing a couple of school buildings, a small walk-in clinic, a pharmacy, the pastor’s building, containing the rooms where we sleep, […]

Haiti – Day Two – Church and State

Saturday morning comes early. Really, really early. As is life, it seems around here. Awake with the heat of the sun means awake at around 6-6.30, maybe earlier, evening sleep comes around 9pm. I had slept in fits and starts, but was rested enough when the sun came up. The power was cutting in and […]

Day One – Welcome to Cap-Haïtien

2.27 am – Saturday, January 17th. Cap-Haïtien, Haiti. 93 percent humidity, around 21 degrees. I don’t think I have ever flown for so short a distance, and yet come to a place so far away. I set out from Miami International Airport having only slept about 3 hrs the night before. Head buzzing full of […]

Week One

It’s the first week of 2015, or rather, the first week of 2015 has already passed us by. Just like that. One week from 52. A year sounds so short when it’s broken down into smaller parts. Our human invention, time, dissects moments, stopwatches the world. The passing of time becomes paramount these days, I […]

On ego (and the losing of)

What to do? You are a content creator. It’s your job. (You, meaning me, in case you’re confused.) You are paid to create. In the act of creation, you become attached to your creation. How can you not? You invest time and effort into making something, and in any context, in almost any situation, this […]

I am a mirror. I want to be a beacon.

Here’s how it goes. I work with clients to realize their own visions. I translate their thoughts and ideas to moving images. I strive to achieve the things they have in their head through the digital medium. In essence, I am a mirror. I attempt to reflect their ideas back to them. The mirror changes […]

Dating. Missing

I have a profound sense of loss and longing after a blind date. It’s not to do with the blind date partner. I’m not entirely sure what it is. Online dating is a modern cure for the age-old symptom of loneliness.I think I stay single because I am afraid of putting myself out there, afraid […]

I am falling in love with my cellphone

Until a couple of years ago, I was never much of a smartphone guy. My fascination with cellphones, at least aesthetically, had begun sometime ago, back when I lived in China, I found them cheap and useful, and on my westerners salary, I could afford a relatively stylish one. My love affair ended with a […]

Fat

Disgusting image! Yeah! Woo! That is 1lb of fat. I lost a little over 4 of those in the last 7 days. Thats the equivalent of half a healthy baby….or 15-20 medium sized potatoes. The thing is…the human body can fluctuate up to 5lbs in any given day…water weight, time of day…etc etc….and the beginning […]

The Sky and the Ground are One

A grey day. The kind of day where the concrete has more texture than the skies, but they meet in perfect tone and hue at the horizon. A run. I have yet to run for an extended period of time without breaks, which is a frustration, but it is early days, and the body is […]

Freeform

Writing without an idea, at least for me, is a little dangerous. You never know where you’re going to end up, how you got there, where you’re going. Unchecked, uncensored thoughts jostle for attention, craving to be digitally immortalized, rendered in pixels for all to see. From the banal to the mischievous, all eyes on […]

Thought Thirty-Four: Bizarre

Well. That was…odd. 40th birthday. Yeah, i’m THAT old. Deal with it. Anyway, I have been messaging back and forward for a week or more to organize a photoshoot with a model who for all intensive purposes shall remain nameless. Well, we figured on a time and place, and it happened to fall on my […]

Thought Thirty Three: John Lennon’s Bed

Launched a website at midnight on Sunday. Got two hours sleep.  Went to the scene of John Lennon’s famous ‘Bed-In‘ hotel room. Almost exactly 42 years ago that this event happened. Hard to believe. It was part of a promotion from a local events company, they staged their own ‘bed-in’ to pay tribute to the […]

Thought Twenty Six:Cat+High Place=Black Eye

Yes, my kitty cat, my adorable ball of fluffy fun managed to give me a black eye this morning. Let me explain (Mists of recollection descend, screen goes all wibbly wobbly, flashback commences) The weather is changing here, and during the winter, my cat and I curl up together for warmth. SO far so good. […]

Thought Twenty-Five: Unrequited Love, Desire, and other mysteries

Without love our life is … a ship without a rudder … like a body without a soul. ~Sholem Aleichem Every day, we strive to achieve something. Whether the goals be small (catch the right bus, finish the work, be on time for our meeting) or large (be a better person, decide what studies to […]

Thought Twenty-Four: Bad Dreams, Bad Movies

Funny, looking at the title I just wrote. Dreams are really what movies want to become. More Immersion than 3-D smell-o-vision, or any exotic technology yet to come for a long while. I remember the film ‘Strange Days’ where theres a little gadget that can record experiences and replay them to someones mind directly as if they […]

Thought Twenty-Two: Bits and Pieces

My mind cant focus on one particular thing, so this is a random mash up of the mush sloshing around in my brain cells right now. First, I should really write more in this blog. I apologize if anyone actually reads this for the scarcity of blog posts. I know when I read other peoples […]

Thought Thirteen: More Dreams

Shrugged off 6 hrs or so of sleep. Still hanging over me like a constricting shroud. Downing an energy drink to break the funk of tiredness. Im not going to let this blog turn into a dream diary or anything, in fact, im not a great fan of those, but this particular dream stuck with […]

Thought Nine: Dreams

No, I’m not talking about career aspirations, or goals, or wishful thinking, Im talking about the stuff you do when you snore and drool. Yes, I drool in my sleep, I admit it. Nasty habit, but Im not even sure if theres anything that can be done about it. Dreams are odd things. Are they […]